four weeks! eliot pearl was delivered four weeks ago today. the time is flying by, which is sad.
with lillian, i remember being so ready for the next stage – whatever that was. when i was pregnant, i was ready for her to be born. when she was a newborn, i was ready for her to grow up a little. to sleep more. to breastfeed better. to start doing tummy time. to sit up. to crawl. to stand up. to talk. to walk. only recently did i stop and really think to myself – holy crow. she is growing up too fast. my baby is now my little girl. that hurts.
i don’t want lillian to grow up. of course, i am excited that she is growing and learning and thriving and coming into her own. but, i miss having her as my little one. my constant companion.
i guess that’s why i grew a new one 😉
eliot pearl is the best thing since sliced bread. she is ridiculously adorable. her hair is dark and wild. her eyes are wide and curious. her arms are long and skinny, as are her legs (earning her the nickname “skinny legs”). her fingers and toes are also long and skinny (no surprise there). she craves contact. she wants to be held and loved. even at night. especially at night. (yes, she sleeps with me. whatever. she loves it and i do too and we all sleep. yay for sleep).
lillian is a wonderful big sister. i worried about how she would respond. but, as usual, she has exceeded my expectations. she enjoys having baby eliot around. she likes to do things to help us take care of the baby – especially picking out which diaper baby eliot will wear next (baby eliot’s favorites are the ones with the birds according to lillian) and bringing her her pacifier. she also enjoys talking to baby eliot (baby eliot’s voice is very high-pitched fyi). seeing lillian adapt to her role as a big sister (and make the role her own) has been one of the highlights of having eliot join our family.
we are all very much in love with this baby. and, knowing how fast they grow up, i plan to do my very best to savor every moment of her little life.
life with two kids is crazy. and hectic. but good. so very good. we are very blessed.
littles at the hospital after putting on the socks they so kindly required me to wear during recovery:
well. it’s a girl.
i must admit, i’m not shocked. i had this feeling that the tummy dweller was a girl. before yea ole sonogram confirmed it this morning, i was confident. i just knew. and, i wasn’t disappointed in the least.
many of you know that i have been not-so-secretly aching for a little boy since before the littles arrived on the scene, but, rest assured, i am completely and totally at peace with having another wonderful little girl.
so, bring on the pink (well, not so much – maybe purple or green or yellow or any of those other good colors…you know i am a little iffy on the pink).
so, inevitably, you will think to ask – do you have any names? yes, we do have names, although we haven’t settled on one yet. funny, we had the boy name all ready to go (being that it was a leftover from the days of expecting the first of unknown gender). we have plenty of girl’s names on the list, but haven’t found the one. and, to be honest, i’m not sure we are going to share her name until she is born. so there. (i let you know her gender this time at least . . . i have to keep something to myself).
as for our change of heart about finding out the gender from the last pregnancy to this one – this time just feels different. and, it is different in so many ways. i needed to know what this little one was before she came busting onto the scene. i wanted to be able to get lillian used to the idea of a “baby sister” or a “baby brother.” and, i wanted to get myself used to the idea of another girl or a first boy. as many know, i was a little shocked last time to learn that a daughter had been born. i was expecting a son. of course, i loved lillian instantly and grew to like her over time (it didn’t take long), but i wonder if it all would have been easier had i known what was coming (known she was coming). maybe. maybe not.
but, now, we know. a baby sister is on the way!
i feel like this poor baby is already getting the short end of the stick. i haven’t taken photos of my expanding waist line (which is expanding!!); i haven’t blogged every day with updates on what the tummy dweller is doing; i haven’t started the buying frenzy (which will surely come with time). in short, i have been living my normal life, but as a pregnant person.
i try not to feel guilty about this. after all, my lack of doing all of this is, in part, due to the fact that, this time around, i have different ideas about what is important and what isn’t. this baby is loved. so loved! already. i guess i don’t need to blog and photograph and record and be obsessive and etc etc in order to show that. right?
in any event, here is a quick snippet of tummy-dweller updates for you. i started feeling this little one kicking around at about 15 weeks of pregnancy. Early! – much earlier than I did with Lillian for sure. i also started to “show” much earlier this time around (which, i hear, is normal). we have started to kick around names, but haven’t decided on anything. and, we might just keep the name a secret this time around. we will not, however, be keeping the gender a secret this time. in fact, i will find out this week whether this baby is a girl or a boy. i just couldn’t wait this time around. i need to know!!! (no, i don’t have any “feeling” about what it is yet). what else? with this pregnancy, we did have the first trimester screening done. we did not have this done with lillian. you will be pleased to hear that the tummy dweller passed this test with flying colors (they say its not a “test” – but, whatever – A+ to the tummy dweller).
i will, i am sure, give you more updates in the future. but, that will be it for now.
oh, i must say that lillian is obsessed with the ultrasound and doppler process at the doctor’s office. she always lies down and asks that we put “jelly” on her belly. of course, we don’t. she then proceeds to rub things across her belly to simulate the ultrasound process. pretty funny.